A Former Anorexic Is Now The Face Of Body Positivity

posted: 11/09/15
by: TLCme
Megan Jayne Crabbe
Megan Jayne Crabbe

For years, Megan Jayne Crabbe, of Colchester, England, struggled with anorexia. She was diagnosed with the eating disorder at 14, and at one point weighed just 70 pounds. Her family hospitalized her and had her fed through a feeding tube to help her get her weight up.

Despite getting treatment, and getting her weight up, Crabbe said it was still a long time before she felt truly better. "I tripled my body weight in a year, and was thrown right back into a world of diet talk and airbrushed ideals, in a newly chubby body that I was disgusted with," she wrote on her blog. "My weight never relapsed back down to dangerously low, but my mind never truly recovered."

Amazingly, it was social media that actually helped her heal. Instagram, in fact.

Normally, basically the worst place in the world for body image, Crabbe says that it was seeing a bunch of different and beautiful bodies on Instagram that made her realize she needed to stop obsessing about the way she looked.

"Somehow I stumbled across a body positive hashtag, and saw all these people of every shape and size unapologetically loving themselves. Bikinis and all! I put them to the back of my mind and went on with my punishing daily workout, convincing myself that I could never be like them."

It wasn't immediate, but "Slowly, reluctantly, something dawned on me: I just could not live the rest of my life hating myself. I didn't want to diet forever," she wrote. "I didn't want to be brainwashed by the media's unattainable 'ideal body' lies any longer. Deep down I knew that thinness would never actually equate to happiness, despite what we're taught."

These days, the 22-year-old, who's a self-purported big fan of "belly roll love, exposing diet industry lies, and wearing pastels," is more comfortable than ever with her shape. It took time, but now Crabbe proudly shows off her curves. She stopped dieting, but went on a media diet, and began teaching herself self-love with books like The Beauty Myth and Fat? So! "I stopped tearing my body apart for its physical appearance, and started appreciating everything that it let me do."

Check out Crabbe's awesome, inspiring Instagram.